30th/ thinking to much

So today was the 30th. Today was iffy. I woke up, went to the gym, worked hard and have relaxed basically. Today little kids go around in costumes and basically trick or treat. It's pretty cute. Later in the day my host family and I went to Vaasa and went shopping. They got me my birthday gift which I don't feel to comfortable about because it was very expensive. I mean I am grateful truly but I never feel comfortable when people spend lots on me. Then me went and ate. We came home and have relaxed until around 7 when we started to get ready to go to a bonfire. We left at 7:45 and got there around 8. It was pretty boring because it wasn't a party like a bonfire it supposed to be. It was very quiet because it had reglious meaning. Then we came home, and I checked my Facebook/instagram. Well that killed my night. I had asked earlier in the week if anything thing was going on this weekend( parties, movies, etc.) and the kids said they would let me know. Well I saw pictures of people together having fun. That really made me depressed. It's like people don't understand that this is why I feel like I don't have friends. I mean am I really that weird and annoying that you can't call and say "hei were getting together wanna come?". I have 3 months left and am kinda excited to go home, then  realize that I will have to deal with the drama of small town life. I really wish I could find a place where I can get out, where the people like me and where there is no drama. but I think I am going to shower, drink some tea and try to sleep. Last night was pretty sleepless and I have a weird feeling this one will be to.

27th-29th

Well on the 27th I was supposed to have a economics test but It got moved to next Wednesday. I then went to the gym and chilled at school and then home. Didn't really do much that day. I did fill out some post cards and paperwork  to be sent out. On the 28th I had a french test which I am pretty sure I failed. Then I hung out with the German girl Anna who was last year then I chilled at home, and then slept. Today the 29th was Good Friday which meant everything was closed. I learned when I went for a walk because I was a little sad that all the tickets for the USA vs Finland hockey game were sold out. Then I came home, slept a bit then got stuff ready for dinner. Dinner was lamb and potato's and cheese and salad and all very fancy. We also had wine which I tried. I discovered I am not really a wine person. Then My host parents and I played several bored games which I lost at. Then I just chilled the night away and even had a cup of Cinnamon tea. Now getting ready for bed. Going to the gym tomorrow to work my ass off.

26th

Well today was normal. I had my Finnish test which went ok then lifted( leg day). I came home, did laundry, studied and chilled. At 7 I went to sauna and then snow. While In sauna and now while I am in bed I began thinking of what someone asked me today. My friend Juuso asked why I am such a morning person and why am I so happy? Well I guess it's because I'm tire of being sad. I have learned that smiling is the best way to be happy. Even if you have to fake it it will eventually happen for real.

24th-25th

So on Sunday the 24th I moved. I woke up at like 10, finished packing and cleaning, watched rush hour 2 and played black op with my bro then had a very lovely lunch of steak and crembole made by my host parents. At 2 p.m I moved to the new family. Everything went well and at 9 p.m I went to say goodbye to a friend who is moving in a couple day. Today Monday I had an English test and It went really well. Then I wen to my house and hung with my friend Siru and we watched the movie Sinister which is a horror movie. It was really good. At 2 my host mom got home and we went shopping. Then at 4 my host mom left for a church thing and I started doing homework. I did that for several hours and am now getting for bed. Tomorrow is my aidinkieli(Finnish) test and it should go well.

23rd

Well today was ok. i woke up at 9 and resumed packing and cleaning. Today is Helmi's actual birthday so we had to clean the house for her second party. So that kinda annoyed me because it just shows how spoiled she is.  So I got almost everything packed except the stuff I need for tomorrow( computer, contacts, etc. etc.). Later in the day I took a nap and then Helmi's friends came over. Everything went ok except I got mad at my host mom for reminding me once again that I am only 16. I really hate it when she does that because I may be only 16 but I don't feel 16. Then At around 9 we ate kebab and here soon my older host bro and his Gf will arrive so that means a late night chilling with him. Then tomorrow I will be up at probably 9 or 10 and Finish packing everything and then clean my room. I move at around 2 p.m tomorrow. I'm kinda excited yet not because this means my exchange is almost done.

22nd

Well today was an EHHH day. Woke up at 6:30, was at school for a 7:40 class. School went ok, and I ended it with sports class. We played badminton which I didn't like because I don't like that game. During sports it started snowing which made me sad because I mean its the end of March we shouldn't have snow. I came home and watched a movie. Then tried laying down but was interrupted by my little sister yelling at me that it was time for food. Well I ate a little because I didn't feel good, and then went and laid down while the rest went to Hemli's concert. I woke up after about an hour and felt way better so I started packing. The family didn't get back until 8ish and then the chilled and went to bed, meanwhile I am still trying to pack. Tomorrow will consist of Helmi's second party for her birthday and packing. Lots of packing.I move at 2 p.m on Sunday.

21st

Well today was a pretty normal day. Woke up at 8:45 and then went to school at 9:30. Had French at 10:35. I really don't like the new teacher. She talks to me like I'm stupid and like I don't understand any Finnish at all. On top of that she doesn't listen to me. Today I told her 3 times she doesn't have to translate the test that the English teacher will probably do it. The rest of the day went pretty well and then I went home at 3:10 and took a nap. The I just kinda poke around. I watched a movie with Finnish Subtitles. Today though was the day I realized I am pretty screwed for my Finnish test on the 6th. So that's got me freaking out. Weather wise it was kinda nice. Clear day but it was cold and windy. But the sun is melting the snow on the sidewalks and roads so that's nice.

20th

Well today was pretty good. had French at 7:40 which sucked. I really don't like the new teacher. Then school went fine Lunch was fish and chips and was actually pretty good. I lifted after school and it was awkward because while I was lifting there was 10+ 9th grade girls lifting to and a lot of the time they were in the way. Plus a lot of them looked at me weird.I came home napped, woke up, did laundry, ate dinner then chilled. at around 9 I skyped my parents and ended up seeing my grandpa who came over to say hi to my mom and that was cool. Then I played a couple games of pool and am now getting ready for bed.

18th-19th

Well Monday the 18th was a really normal Monday. Woke up at 8 and was at school for a class at 9:35. Day was boring. Ended with French. We got a new teacher because out other one is on maternity leave. She was nice but not a very good teacher. So to help pass the time I flirted with the cute girl next to me. then I came home, My older host sister Essi was packing because she Left that evening while the German girl left that morning. So my host dad and I took her to the train station and then he dropped me off at Rotary. It was one of the members birthday so we had free cake and coffee which was good. Then there was a presentation on Ireland form one of the members who is Irish ye speaks fluent Finnish. He wished me a happy St.Patricks day which was cool. Then came home and slept. Today Tuesday the 19th I was at school at 10 to talk to a couple of 8th grade classes about the U.S. It went ok. Some of the kids were kinda annoying but I dealt with it. Then I had lunch and then ended the day with Psych. I went and lifted and came home. I slept because I was really tired. Then I just chilled. For dinner we had two types of fish. One smoked and the other not. The non smoked was ok but the smoked was REALLY good. Then I made a fire with my host dad and played pool. Now getting ready to sleep because I have French at 7:40.

16t-17th

well on the 16th Helmi had a little party for her birthday because Julia the German girl who was here several years ago came for the weekend. The beginning of the day I was SUPER anti social from the night before. Well then I was forced to come down stairs and slowly losend up. It was a fun night. On the 17th Julia, Essi my older host sister, A guy named Tuomas and I shot a documentary about chocolate milk addiction. It went really well. Well after we finished I played COD and prestiged. Everything went really slowly until around 9. I then was able to see the Northern Lights. It was really really amazing and they were absolutely beautiful. Tomorrow it is back to school and then Rotary at 5:30.

Bad day

Well today was a bad day. It started out ok. Woke up at 7, made my 7:40 class on time and everything went fine until lunch. At 12 I got a haircut, and then I went and got lunch. As I was coming back I had to cross a road to get to the school. Well There was a van coming so I quickly road across. I came towards the entrance way to the school parking lot at an angle and braked to adjust. Well My back tire slid out from under me and I landed really hard on my right leg. I actually had to limp to the school building because My knee and hip hurt so bad. Well after time it went away and For sports we played hockey. Well that sucked because I suck at hockey and it makes me mad because I fall a lot. Well came home and cleaned and slept and then  around 8 a former exchange student who lived with this family came. She will be here for a week. Well from there I started feeling like shit. It was obvious that the family liked her better. Plus I felt bad that my Finnish sucks. So I chilled in m room and then finally came down and things start going ok. Well the power went off, and I ended up playing pool with my host dad with headlamps. Well then I started getting own again. I went and showered and everybody else started going to bed. I don't know what triggered it but I got pretty home sick. Missing the father-son moments. Well I started looking through facebook and saw a picture of some kids from home who are one the dance team who are in state and they were skyping a girl form Pendleton who went to Italy with another program. Well that killed me. Made me really feel like I don't belong anywhere. I mean I don't feel welcome in this host family anymore. I'm not sure if  I have friends here. I mean kids are nice to me at school But I NEVER get out of the house. I never get invited anywhere and when I asked what people are doing they are always busy. Then I always see these pictures or statuses about other exchangers getting letters, and packages from friends back home. I mean I never get so much as a message on facebook from people. If I wanna talk to someone I have to message them. And usually they don't respond. That kills me. Also everyday I write this blog and I'm not sure anybody really reads it. There were so many people before I left asking me for my blog info and now I don't think anyone reads it. It just kinda confirms That no body besides really cares about me.

13th-14th

Well on Wednesday the 13th It was a normal day. I had French at 7:40 and then I had a class every period until lunch. I was supposed to have a class after lunch but the teacher wasn't there so I chilled in the break room until around 1:30 and then went to workout. Well the gym was full of non lifting 9th graders and it was annoying but I got  good lift in. After that I really didn't do much but I did translate a psych project with my sisters help. Well today the 14th I woke up at 8 and Didn't have to be at school until 10:35. Well I went at a reasonable time to get some gum from the store. Well the temp today was -15 degrees Celsius. That is 5 degrees Fahrenheit. Well on the ride I had to cross a bridge over looking the river. Well standing on the ice was what I THINK was an otter. I am not quite sure what is was because It looked a little small to be an otter. Well I stopped to get a picture and it jumped in the river and swam away. I was disappointed. Well school went fine and My presentation in Psychology went ok. I then came home and have done nothing really. Tomorrow Is my long day and in sports we are playing hockey. Tomorrow is also the day when the German girl who exchanged here several years ago comes and stays with his family for a week or so. Should be an interesting day.

12th

Well today was kinda bad. I went to school at around 9 in a terrible snow storm. The snow was so deep I had trouble riding. Then school went ok.  I then went home in a bad snow storm again and my bike broke so it made it kinda hard to ride. When I did get home The snow was about a foot deep so I had to Clear it. Then My host dad took me to Seinäjoki to a football gear seller. I was expecting it to be like croc's shirts and stuff but it was actual football gear. So I picked up a girdle. the ride to and from the gear seller was really bad. It was really snowy. Then I get home. eat. and just chill. Night go's on pretty well until I am about to write this. I am downstairs just joking and stuff with Essi my elder host sis and Helmi well Helmi does her little growl thing which she does a lot and I jokingly said to my host mom " I think we need to get the house checked, somethings growling at me".  Well my host mom said " Maybe you should move out. Maybe tonight or tomorrow. call Puska and tell them". Well I know she was probably joking but it really didn't feel like it. So that kinda got me down. SO yea night.

10th-11th

Well on the 10th I did absolutely noting and the only thing that really happened was my counsellor came over and signed some paperwork I needed signed. Well the was today and a Monday. So I went to school at 8:30 for a class at 9:35. While there I got some papers copied for my Visa application. After school I went to the post office and sent some things out and then went to the bank and paid for my Russia trip. I came home and did home work and that's all. Tomorrow is LEG DAY and boring school so should be ok. I will also try to go to Seinäjoki to buy some football gear. Other then that nothing really. The weather lately though as been beautiful. Today was sunny and it actually felt some what warm. It was perfect.

8th-9th

So on Friday the 8th I had an ok day. Was pretty long. I had lunch at the kebab place because the school lunch looked terrible and then I went to pay for my Russia trip. Well I found out the Bank is closed until Monday. Yea that upset me. Then I went Skiing for sports class and the rest of the day was lazy. Well today I had practice and we practiced with the men's team and that went pretty good. Came home, did laundry and chilled. Was pretty lazy. The weather today was really cold like -16 degrees Celsius and on Friday it was windy, cold and snowy. Was really bad.

7th

Well today was pretty good. Went to school and had my first class at 10:35 which was French. Then Finnish then lunch. Lunch was porridge so it was ok.  Rest of school went super slow it was ridicules. After school I went and had an upper body day. I pushed soo hard that by the end I could barely lift my arms. I was disappointed though that the burn and the soreness didn't last long. Made me very sad. I got home and chilled until around 6 when my next host dad came and picked me up. We went to my next house and with my next host mom talked, drank coffee, ate sugary stuff and took a tour of the house. I really think I will like it there. It's about a kilometre to school so the ride will be fine. Anyway now I am at home getting ready for bed. Tomorrow is a long day. I every class and sports which tomorrow we will be skiing. Then I have to go pay for my Russia trip so should be fun. As for the weather. It's sunny and chilly. Not very March like.

6th

Today school started for me at 7:40. It went fairly quick. My school ended at around 1:35 so I quickly went to lift and...... I forgot my shorts. So after that discovery I went home. The ride home sucked. It was -5 degrees Celsius( in the 20's), with strong winds and snow/hail like stuff that stung really bad when it hits you in the face. So I FINALLY make it home and I chill for maybe an hour then my host dad picks me up and we go to pick up my little host sister. We go to Vaasa to drop her off at her singing lessons( which are next week not today). After we drop her off I go to the Apple store and pick up my Ipod, then I go and get Visa photos. We then pick up my host sister, host mom and then my other host sister. We come home and chill. AS soon as I got home I started working on my Ipod. It took me awhile but I am basically back to where I was when It broke. Tomorrow I have school at 10:35, I will do my workout I was supposed to do today and then at 6 I meet my next and final host family. I am kinda nervous.

4th-5th

Well yesterday on the 4th I didn't do much. I went to school and Rotary and that is about it. Today the 5th I went to school at around 10 to lift, school started at 11:35 and went smoothly. I had class until 3 and then went home. I was supposed to go to Vaasa but ended up not so I took a small nap. I woke up,ate dinner then did what  I could for my club recommendation letter. Hopefully my consular and I can get together fairly soon seeing as it as well as the money are due on the10th. Later tonight I skyped my parents and got all but one tiny section on my Visa application done so that is good. Tomorrow school starts at 7:40 and ends a little after 1. Then I lift and go to Vaasa to get my ipod and try and get a picture taken.

2nd-3rd

Well on the second I didn't do much. I packed up, cleaned My host sisters apartment, had a really good burger that had like 5 meats and left back to Laihia. When we got home we didn't do much except we watched Skyfall which wasn't a bad movie. I liked the ending because It took it back to the original Bonds. Then today the 3rd I cleaned, did homework and slept. It was a very lazy day. Tomorrow I am back to school which sucks. I also am restarting my diet because I kinda failed that. Oh I forgot to mention in my post bout going to Sweden that while there in a sports store I ended up talking to one of the employees and we were talking about AR-15's and stuff. Was pretty cool. Found out he owns one and plans on picking up another.

March 1st

Well today was pretty fun. First we went to a place that was like a little OMSI. While there I bought a pin and was like explaining why to the lady in case she thought I was weird but she was like ¨I know I was a Rotary Exchange Student too¨. SO that was awesome. Then we went down town and had lunch then shopped. I went to a book store and bought a book called ¨How to Marry a Finnish Girl¨. It is pretty funny. Then at 4 I met my friend my chile at the Stockman. There we looked at UA stuff which is really expensive here. Then we basically walked around for a couple of hours. We did have a good encounter with some attractive girls at the stockman and that was cool but other then that it was a boring time. Today I also got to see a new upcoming band which was pretty good. I even got one of their CD'S.