Bad day

Well today was a bad day. It started out ok. Woke up at 7, made my 7:40 class on time and everything went fine until lunch. At 12 I got a haircut, and then I went and got lunch. As I was coming back I had to cross a road to get to the school. Well There was a van coming so I quickly road across. I came towards the entrance way to the school parking lot at an angle and braked to adjust. Well My back tire slid out from under me and I landed really hard on my right leg. I actually had to limp to the school building because My knee and hip hurt so bad. Well after time it went away and For sports we played hockey. Well that sucked because I suck at hockey and it makes me mad because I fall a lot. Well came home and cleaned and slept and then  around 8 a former exchange student who lived with this family came. She will be here for a week. Well from there I started feeling like shit. It was obvious that the family liked her better. Plus I felt bad that my Finnish sucks. So I chilled in m room and then finally came down and things start going ok. Well the power went off, and I ended up playing pool with my host dad with headlamps. Well then I started getting own again. I went and showered and everybody else started going to bed. I don't know what triggered it but I got pretty home sick. Missing the father-son moments. Well I started looking through facebook and saw a picture of some kids from home who are one the dance team who are in state and they were skyping a girl form Pendleton who went to Italy with another program. Well that killed me. Made me really feel like I don't belong anywhere. I mean I don't feel welcome in this host family anymore. I'm not sure if  I have friends here. I mean kids are nice to me at school But I NEVER get out of the house. I never get invited anywhere and when I asked what people are doing they are always busy. Then I always see these pictures or statuses about other exchangers getting letters, and packages from friends back home. I mean I never get so much as a message on facebook from people. If I wanna talk to someone I have to message them. And usually they don't respond. That kills me. Also everyday I write this blog and I'm not sure anybody really reads it. There were so many people before I left asking me for my blog info and now I don't think anyone reads it. It just kinda confirms That no body besides really cares about me.